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i'm ready for some changes in my life.
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[20 Oct 2009|05:47pm] |
I got an "A" on my writen part of the mid-term. and i am not sure about the practical yet.
I am going to see paranormal activitly today and i'm very excited! That shit better be tight. Kat told me she sleeps with the lights on for the past two nights haha.
Also, I have been trying to get ahold of my mom for a couple days.....an i've called her 13 times!!! and no re-turned phone call. then my sisters sitting next to me and calls me mom to ask her something and she fucking answers. wtf, then i'm yelling in the back ground and my mom says she'll call me later and hangs up on my sister.
AND I haven't talked to you in a while, but I have heard your recent news, and I hope everything is okay. Don't think about it to much. It will be alright.
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[08 Sep 2009|08:55pm] |
i absolutely love september. also i colored my hair darker. i didn't like it at all, but now i really like it.
the weather is so nice outside!! i just wanna lay around outside on the beach
 haha i don't loook excited but thats thr exact color of my hair.
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[31 Aug 2009|06:59pm] |
Things for me are going so good. tomorow is September 1st. Which makes me super excited for the fall. i've been having so much fun lately while staying focused at the same time.
things are finally looking up for me, for the good. now all i need is a sugar daddy ha
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august started out shitty, but like i thought, august never fails me. always has been one of the fun months. cometology school has been going well. i haven't missed any days yet. still waiting for my previous hours to transfer from state board so i can be considered "advanced" haha. I really do like school. Its so much better in wilmington. and i'm glad i decided to finish what I started. other then that i've made a few new friends, some a school, some out and around. i finally met some cool people that like good music and have good jobs. hmmm. this past weekend was alot of fun. just alot of people, and the beach. we are going camping friday on the beach. i love summer-fall transition
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[19 Aug 2009|09:41pm] |
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there should be a show called worst week ever, and i should be on it. lets see....my computer moniter died on my labtop. its gonna cost about 300 bucks. then my phone broke the next day. so i have no technology to the outside world. AND oh wait, and my boss wrote me a letter telling me she doesn't need me to work for her as of monday. she couldn't tell me in person or on the phone, she wrote it in a note. and left it on the counter at her house so i'd see it. AND so i pretty much have no phone, no computer(i'm at candaces on hers now for the first time in a few days) as of monday no job. oh and i got a flat tire last week and have got a new tire yet. gahhh i'm complaining yes. because i just had to pay 3:50 to do one load of laundry. fml
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[16 Aug 2009|12:44pm] |
last night was crazy. some girl wrote me an email- WHO I DONT EVEN NO, asking me how to get ahold of ben, because i guess she visited him, and she was like "we made out alot, and then he asked if we could have sex, and i said no" -"then when i left he dropped off the face of the earth and i haven't talked to him since. and i need my gaituir back from him and i didn't no if you two were dating but i donn't want to be in this, i just want my guitiar back because its mine and he won't answer any of my calls....."
akward.
then i went downtown. got wasted, me and my neighbor rob ATE AT JIMBOS at like 3:30am, which i've only been there when i'm wasted, and i've only been there about 5 times. we get back to our houses, gahh i sent him drunk texts. wtf haha. i looked at my phone this morning and its me tryna spit game in texts. oh how funny i am, i crack myself up. goddd
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[12 Aug 2009|05:27pm] |
OMG!! I HAVE AN AUDITION IN RALIEGH ON FRIDAY AT 11:30am TO BE IN THE NEW TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG
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i swore i'd never leave your side, but i'm exhausted. i need my rest.
and even when i close my eyes, all these tears continue and they will find their way to you.
i've got my eye on you. these eyes have have a play.
now won't you please grow for me.
i'm glad school starts friday. i'm nervous. i haven't been in a year. i'm scared because i will be so busy with school and work, and i usually get depressed around that time when i'm so busy. because i'm tired and lonely. ha i sound real emo. but school doesn't excite me, and i can't fuck up this time. i've already fucked up enough. i just want to do something good for myself, and also make my parents proud. i want a real life.
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[19 Jul 2009|04:35pm] |
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god i love boone weather. i could see my breath last night very well. i hard bens old band play last night and they were really good. its random how everyone is connected. i ran into dimitri, and random other people last night. in boone, which i drove 5 1/2 hours here yesterday and i ALSO saw people that i see in wilmington on a regular basis. bens moving to asheville and i'm jealous. gaah, we are going to asheville for the day tomorrow. he's going to show me the apartment he's getting. its right next to the orange peel. it has to porches. and is sort of like the place i WANTED in downtown wilmington. anyway. its like 100 degrees in wilmington, and here it feels like a late september fall day. i didn't even bring the right clothing hha because i'm so used to it being dreadfully hot, and here is like heaven
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[07 Jul 2009|12:28pm] |
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I bailed on Russ. I didn't even make it back to town until monday night because i didn't have to work until tuesday. I ended up going on a date with this guy named andrew maray that i know from high school. we went to dinner and a movie. not as exciting as bridge jumping but it was nice. mostly just nice to catch up. i don't think i like dating. or really i don't think i like calling dates "dates". it makes everything akward when things shouldn't be, especially if you've known the person for a while, but its just been a while since you've hung around them. Anyway, nothing came out of it. but it was nice to catch up.
Today's weather in wilmington reminds me of a certain time period in the fall from a couple years ago. I'm very pleased with the memories. I am ready for summer to be over. I'm ready for school and fall. I'm ready to finish school and I'm excited about it. I don't need any distractions, i just need to be focused. Thats one main reason why I think I am starting to just want to live by myself. I don't need to worry about anything but myself, and I need to be focused more then ever. I heard the new "china white 3" today on absolutepunk.net. I AM IN LOVE with that song. He is legend really doesn't surprise me. They were good, then bad, then alright, and now i like them again haha. This song reminds me so much of Team Sleep. I think that also has something to do with the memories and the weather/time period thing.
Kat is coming to town on the 26th. I want so to leave my job so bad. Just because when school starts I won't be working here because I'll be in school. i just want to hang out with her the hole time shes here. because i will only see her like 2 days outta the 7. but i'm not going to quit. i love my job, and i need to save more.
I'm also starting to be over Wilmington. the people in the time are scum. everyone is to cool for everyone. its redonk-ulous. I don't ever hang out with those people, but from living here the past almost year and just being there to observe, i'm glad i never meshed in with them. I think i'm getting to the point where i'd rather live here and be a loner. and just be with myself for a while, unless i have people visit, then go out and have fun. i don't mind hanging out alone here. because i'm not bored. i'm content.
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[03 Jul 2009|08:43pm] |
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i need a new book to read. also i met a guy named russ. he's not my type. we hang out on thursdays. nothing serious. i'm not very attracted to him. he's cute but not real cute. hes really funny and fun to hang around. i feel like maybe i'm waiting around for ben and i shouldn't anymore. but i'm going on a date with russ on sunday. we are going bridge jumping(jumpin off this huge bridge into the ocean) lol ki-acking. can't spell that shit to massionboro island and then a picnic dinner. i'm excited because i no it'll be fun. i just am not really into him like that. hopefully i just mmake a good friend out of this.
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[29 Jun 2009|01:37pm] |
This weekend was very interesting.
Friday- I went to my brothers play. It was at an ampitheatre(outside theatre). My big sister was intown to see his play as well. Candace and I brought wine. The play was very funny, and filled with very dirty content. it was weird watching it just because my brother was in it. Then we picked up some drinks on the way to candaces, drank, changed, went to blue post. then we went to prauva. anyway to the point, we were driving, well candace was driving me to my house and her car broke down. yea we were stranded in the middle of fucking no where on this dark road, not to mention IN THE MIDDLE of a road, from about 3:30am until about 4:30ish am. when we finally got ahold of someone who could help us.
Sat- went to Myrtle beach for fiona's bday thing. We all waited last minute and decided to go. out hotel......or motel was so fucking shitty. It smelled bad, it was hot because the ac was a wall until, and it had crack heads working as lawn mowers. anyway, we get back from the beach and go to our hotel, (its just me and candace at this point, jessica and them hadn't got in town yet) and fiona, brandon, adrian, and other jessica were staying in a diff hotel. anyway, we get back from the beach and get to our hotel. Theres a black guy standing at his window(the room beside ours) staring at us with no shirt on and his hand in his pants. we decided to hurry into the room. We then grab some money and go to food lion to buy a little bit of microwaves food to eat on our stay at the shitty motel. then back at motel, and i take a shower. while i'm in the shower candace runs into the bathroom saying the black guy is opening his side door. (the side door is a door thats in your room and when you open it, theres another door that leads to the other room) pretty much we were way to close to the creepy guy. I get really scared while in the shower, so i just finish my buissness, and get out. wendell and these girls megan and ashley come over. candace decides to shower. anyway we leave the hotel and go to brandon and fionas hotel to drink. Ashley stays in our room to sleep because she was sick. after drinking and random shit we decided we were going to go to a club. we are there and somehow we all got in the vip and the guys from that VHI show TOOL ACADEMY were there. they seemed like tool bags. Anyway, we get drunk blah blah was fun, on the way back to the hotel that girl ashely who didn't come along calls us saying that the black guy was trying to break into our hotel room. he would knocked, move the door handle, make weird noises, knock, and tap more. anyway so we got there, i went to the office and complained, they couldn't do shit, so i called the cops because i'm not trying to be sleeping and wake up beinng killed by a black guy. the cops came, talked to me, and the black guy, and then we just went to bed. luckily i wasn't scared because we had like 8 ppl sleeping in my hotel room lol
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[24 Jun 2009|10:53am] |
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I'm at work, and I am fucking bored. I have been here since 8 am but when I get off i'm going to be so bored. i neeeeeed to find a second job. I have applied at some places but no luck yet. OH and i'm bored as fuck.
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[10 Jun 2009|02:58pm] |
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yes most lame post ever, i no, BUT i'm getting really angry. I read the first twilight in two days. i started reading the second one yesterday and i'm so angry. this one is so sad and intense but i'm angry with what is going on. i will not say because of u twilight fans who haven't read the book. BUT read it lol. ok yea lame
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[08 Jun 2009|08:04pm] |
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So I am freaking the fuck out. I moved back to wilmington yesterday. I live with this guy chris parker. he's very nice. but thats not why i'm freaking out. My mom had a heart attack this morning while she was at work. My big sister called me saying that she was on the way to the hospital. I called my dad, brother, sister, and I even tried my moms phone. NO ANSWER. When my big sister called me she was crying alot. I went to work still not having talked to anyone. I started to freak the fuck out, after Will went outside to go play with the kids next door I was trying to read the end of the book I'm reading and I couldn't. I just started balling. All I could think about is my mom. I don't know what the fuck I would do with out her. Eventually around 5 I got a call from my Dad, and he said she's doing good, they are running a bunch of tests on her, and that she wasn't leaving today though. Please keep her in your prayers. I lover her so much.
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[05 Jun 2009|03:31pm] |
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I had a really great birthday. Parts of my interesting night weren't to exciting, but highlights-316 oyster bar with jessica and kelsey. and the most random part of my night/morning. BALLROOM danceing at 5:30am with a stranger to Claire de Lune in a parking lot. yep
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[27 May 2009|07:07am] |
I have Jury Duty in about an hour. WFT?! shits wack.
I have also come to the conclusion that a certain someone I no is talking to someone but is hiding it. I don't know why I feel this way, but I feel that even tho they could possibly be hollaring at someone other then me, that they will still try and "hollar" at me when they are in the same ( i would say town) but same place as me.
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[19 May 2009|05:15pm] |
2009 really is fucking wack.
I got fucked over, by who you ask? MY LITTLE fucking sister. She bailed on me, I am currently hating life more then ever. Luckly I have been hanging out with Ben so I feel a little better. Jessica and Wendy said they want to move to Wilmington in August so hopefully possibly we will get a place. I haven't payed for school yet but i'm basically done registering and everything. I am sucking it up and just finishing hairschool. The school I'm going to said that my hours would transfer since it hasn't been more then 5 years. which is somewhat exciting because I think i mightr have 4-5 months left. i don't even remember. BUT if it turns out to where i'm stuck, i will never be the same again.,
Also I played piano with some band last night at the rock shop and it was fun. They were from jacksonville. They arew playing again tonight so maybe i will play with them again tonight. it was fun
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[10 May 2009|07:37pm] |
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7 days until i have to be completely moved out of my house. umm where am i living you ask? i have no clue yet. but i will no fo sho in 2 days. and really just hopefully by tomorrow. gahhh..
kat was here visiting. i just had an awesome past couple days. now today i'm resting but packing gaaaaaa it sucks
so many memories in this place
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